Welcome to my sex diary, where I share all my hot sexual adventures in my sex life with my husband, or by myself. You can read about our previous polyamorous and bisexual sex experiences too. Enjoy.
After a few years of low to no sex drive, my libido came back with a vengeance in spring 2026. Since then, I've been making up for lost time (and lost orgasms; mine and his). We're at it like rabbits most days, and sometimes more than once.
I refer to myself as a slut for two reasons. 1. That's how I feel; slutty, needy, desperate, aching to be fucked and filled, used and abused. 2. I see the word "slut" as a positive thing. I'm reclaiming it as a badge of honour and pride, rather than an insult to do my utmost to avoid being the target of. What's the opposite of a slut, anyway? A 'good girl'? Repressed? No thanks; not for me. I'm much happier having loads of liberal, lubricated, sexy fun exploring just how deep my perverted fantasies and taboo kinks go. And I'm lucky enough to have a husband who has saddled up with me for the ride.
Since the return of my high libido, I've put certain things in place for our shared sex life to continue to flourish as we both desire.
I've got a penchant for being groped by him, whenever he likes; a strong groping kink as well as a free use fucking kink. In the house I rarely if ever wear underwear, and always make sure I'm clothed lightly for his constant, immediate easy access and use whenever he wishes.
Another hot kink is sleep fucking. I love when he wakes me up from sleep with his cock pressing urgently at one of my 'playholes'. Pussy or arse. Recently I've added some sensory deprivation to the mix, going to sleep with a blackout blindfold on and totally silencing ear plugs underneath. The sensation when he wakes me from sleep with his cock thrusting into me, as I'm totally deaf and blind at the same time, is thrillingly sluttish delight.
I love the feel of his cum filling me. The hot explosion of it inside me, wherever he deigns to put it – mouth, pussy or arse. The sticky sensation coating me inside. Having it warm in my throat and stomach when I've deep-throated it out of him. Plugging it inside me elsewhere, for as long as possible. Or how it leaks from my cunt or arsehole so slowly, smearing my labia and inner thighs with cold, used shame. But a shame that I embrace, love, and actively chase a repeat of.
Bondage and CNC (consensual non-consent) feature regularly. I'm a big fan of rapeplay with my husband, which is saying a lot with certain experiences from my past. Again, there's a sense of power reclamation. We have safewords and safing out actions in play always. I trust him with my life. After 16 years together, we know each other intimately. The sexual adventures we have aren't advisable for first date nights, especially the kinky brutality and sexual choking.
Thanks to a recent hormonal rollercoaster (perimenopause and the resulting HRT journey), I have newly enormous, sensitive and highly responsive breasts and nipples. I've gone from hating any touch, to seeking it out. I'll spend every evening laying across my husband's lap on the sofa as we relax with TV together, my tits out for his roaming hands to enjoy and for his fingers to tweak and tease my nipples, which connect so powerfully to my aching clit. By the time I head up to bed, my pussy is extremely wet, slippery and ready for his invasion.
I've discovered a new fondness for being teased and denied. Instead of sneaking off to have a quick wank and brief orgasm with a powerful wand vibrator or bullet vibe, I'll goon and edge and wear nipple clamps and app-controlled sex toys and hand him the remote. I'm chasing the erotic sensations and the power play more than the fast but temporary physical relief. I'm relishing the prolonged sensuality and kink. And it's renewing the strong erotic bond I have with my husband, as well as my enjoyment of my own body and the sensations it can give me, mind as well as body.
And so I've decided to share my frequent hot sex experiences with you all in my sex diary, here at the Cara Sutra sex blog. These are the raunchy tales of my real sex life, the kinky married version. I love sexual pleasure and orgasms and kink, I love him, and I love being his cum-loving, cock-craving, filthy slut.
Get comfortable somewhere private, and enjoy the filthy reads.