My Sex Diary

Welcome to my sex diary, where I share all my hot sexual adventures in my sex life with my husband, or by myself. You can read about our previous polyamorous and bisexual sex experiences too. Enjoy.

After a few years of low to no sex drive, my libido came back with a vengeance in spring 2026. Since then, I've been making up for lost time (and lost orgasms; mine and his). We're at it like rabbits most days, and sometimes more than once.

I refer to myself as a slut for two reasons. 1. That's how I feel; slutty, needy, desperate, aching to be fucked and filled, used and abused. 2. I see the word "slut" as a positive thing. I'm reclaiming it as a badge of honour and pride, rather than an insult to do my utmost to avoid being the target of. What's the opposite of a slut, anyway? A 'good girl'? Repressed? No thanks; not for me. I'm much happier having loads of liberal, lubricated, sexy fun exploring just how deep my perverted fantasies and taboo kinks go. And I'm lucky enough to have a husband who has saddled up with me for the ride.

Since the return of my high libido, I've put certain things in place for our shared sex life to continue to flourish as we both desire.

I've got a penchant for being groped by him, whenever he likes; a strong groping kink as well as a free use fucking kink. In the house I rarely if ever wear underwear, and always make sure I'm clothed lightly for his constant, immediate easy access and use whenever he wishes.

Another hot kink is sleep fucking. I love when he wakes me up from sleep with his cock pressing urgently at one of my 'playholes'. Pussy or arse. Recently I've added some sensory deprivation to the mix, going to sleep with a blackout blindfold on and totally silencing ear plugs underneath. The sensation when he wakes me from sleep with his cock thrusting into me, as I'm totally deaf and blind at the same time, is thrillingly sluttish delight.

I love the feel of his cum filling me. The hot explosion of it inside me, wherever he deigns to put it – mouth, pussy or arse. The sticky sensation coating me inside. Having it warm in my throat and stomach when I've deep-throated it out of him. Plugging it inside me elsewhere, for as long as possible. Or how it leaks from my cunt or arsehole so slowly, smearing my labia and inner thighs with cold, used shame. But a shame that I embrace, love, and actively chase a repeat of.

Bondage and CNC (consensual non-consent) feature regularly. I'm a big fan of rapeplay with my husband, which is saying a lot with certain experiences from my past. Again, there's a sense of power reclamation. We have safewords and safing out actions in play always. I trust him with my life. After 16 years together, we know each other intimately. The sexual adventures we have aren't advisable for first date nights, especially the kinky brutality and sexual choking.

Thanks to a recent hormonal rollercoaster (perimenopause and the resulting HRT journey), I have newly enormous, sensitive and highly responsive breasts and nipples. I've gone from hating any touch, to seeking it out. I'll spend every evening laying across my husband's lap on the sofa as we relax with TV together, my tits out for his roaming hands to enjoy and for his fingers to tweak and tease my nipples, which connect so powerfully to my aching clit. By the time I head up to bed, my pussy is extremely wet, slippery and ready for his invasion.

I've discovered a new fondness for being teased and denied. Instead of sneaking off to have a quick wank and brief orgasm with a powerful wand vibrator or bullet vibe, I'll goon and edge and wear nipple clamps and app-controlled sex toys and hand him the remote. I'm chasing the erotic sensations and the power play more than the fast but temporary physical relief. I'm relishing the prolonged sensuality and kink. And it's renewing the strong erotic bond I have with my husband, as well as my enjoyment of my own body and the sensations it can give me, mind as well as body.

And so I've decided to share my frequent hot sex experiences with you all in my sex diary, here at the Cara Sutra sex blog. These are the raunchy tales of my real sex life, the kinky married version. I love sexual pleasure and orgasms and kink, I love him, and I love being his cum-loving, cock-craving, filthy slut.

Get comfortable somewhere private, and enjoy the filthy reads.

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Masturbation Diary: I Touch Myself

Welcome to my masturbation diary, where I share an erotic first-person story of self-pleasure. In this entry, I touch myself on a hot morning, exploring throbbing clit desire, aching wetness, and the irresistible build-up to orgasm. If you love intimate masturbation stories that feel raw, real, and dripping with sexual tension, this diary is written for you...

Finally, Some Time Alone

I felt my clit tingle beneath my skinny jeans, under the lace of my G-string. Suddenly I was hyper aware of my breasts, the hardening of my nipples, and the fact that my pussy lips felt like they wanted to part, begging to be filled and pleasured.

Caught In The Act

Then we're connected. The warm tip of his erection presses against my puckered, lube-slicked hole, expertly seeking its sheath as his hands remain holding me spread. Thanks to his thoughtful, teasing preparation, the head of his cock slips inside. I feel, rather than hear, him groan above me as he fights against instant self-indulgence and forces himself to take time over his conquest.  

Slipping In While I’m Asleep And Fucking Me Awake

Index and middle finger expertly sought out the slippery wetness his attentions had generated so far. My breaths turned ragged and heavy as he slid a finger inside me, probing and testing, then another... opening me up and finger fucking me. My nipples were hard against the covers and his other arm slipped round underneath me, seeking the weight of my breasts to complete the sinful encircling.  

London Fuck Doll: Fucked, Denied, Satisfied

I moaned aloud as he took me by the shoulders and drove the full length of his cock deep into my achingly hungry pussy. My slippery, soft labia were spread apart as they massaged his welcome penetration. My head turned to the side, flat on the bed as he pinned it there with his heavy hand in my hair, he rammed his cock into me repeatedly, frenziedly. This wasn't love-making. This was primitive, carnal rutting.

London Window Display

I was on a high from the theatre; the sounds, sights and smells of the west end. A shared bottle of white in Soho definitely helped. Buzzing from a fantastic night out, and tumbling into our deluxe hotel suite, I was feeling so incredibly aroused and daring.

The Day She Came: Fucking My Girl

The thick fabric was sopping at the join there, and my finger slid so easily between her labia. My fingertip brushed over her clitoris which was shamelessly erect - as I knew it would be. Her whole body shuddered against me and I cradled her...

Watching A Man Fuck My Boyfriend

Moans escaped his lips; louder then, as he couldn't help but throw his head back as the slow-but-certain arse fucking continued. His fingers were still curled in a death-grip around the pillow, but his back arched. Audibly ragged breaths were drawn between moans and he pushed his arse back on to that invading cock...

Watching My Boyfriend Suck Another Man’s Cock

His mouth, with all its masculine bearded surround, enveloping the cock tip. My boyfriend's lips forming the O around the collar of his friend's dick, as if it were second nature. I moistened my own lips, as if in readiness. I could almost taste and feel every millimetre for myself, so familiar were the actions. I've sucked cock a thousand times and know the tricks. What I didn't know was that I'd been giving my boyfriend lessons.

Blowjobs With Invisalign: My Kinky Teeth

Dear Daddy: When I suck your cock with my Invisalign aligners in, I get all self-conscious. I never used to be self-conscious when I was sucking your cock. But somehow, an Invisalign blowjob makes everything different.

How It Feels Watching Your Partner Fuck Someone Else

How would you feel if you saw your partner fuck someone else? I guess for many the answer would be colourful variants of pissed off. Catch 5 minutes of a daytime TV chat show to watch lie detector frenzies and accusations of cheating descend into all-out battle. The reality, when we add in consent and pre-discussion, is more complex and nuanced. A partner having sex with someone else doesn't always mean they're cheating on you or that you'll feel betrayed.

Real Life Cock Sucking Story: How I Give Him A Blow Job

He’s using the very deepest part of my throat as his personal wank sleeve – a fuck toy in which to dump his cum. It’s not long until I feel that final stiffening of his large cock deep in my mouth, and he’s holding my head still as he grunts his hot ejaculation past my fucked-raw tonsils deep into my throat.

Girl date: The first fuck is the sweetest

I slipped first the tip of my index finger inside her pussy, then my middle finger alongside it. Slowly and gently at first, I finger fucked her while my tongue danced over and around her clit...

Reclaiming his territory

He moved on his side to face me, both of us on top of the bed. His nose almost touching mine. There’s no argument which could ever be brooked with those dark eyes, brooding doesn’t even come close. Determined? Of course. Expectant. Dominant. In control. To be obeyed without question or hesitation. To stare into them means to know this is what you really want, to know your own mind and be strong enough to go where it and he leads. I'm proud enough to face those eyes openly and without hiding or running. They were out of focus range, suddenly… and his mouth was on mine, tasting and invading. The first penetration.

Pretty When I Cry

Raising my hips in the usual way I can easily slip just the end of his still hard cock inside my incredibly wet cunt. Sucking him and making him cum hard down my throat always turns me on so much that my inner thighs are a sticky mess of arousal. I lean down to kiss him, my mouth still awash with the taste of his cum - but he loves the taste. It makes him kiss me all the more passionately, his tongue sweeping around my mouth, exploring, relishing every last remnant of his cum...

The Time I Made Him Make Me Safe Out

It hurts SO much. Is this all I can take? Would someone else be able to take more? Am I being a wuss? I want him to be proud of me. It hurts. Fuck, that hurts so much. Ok I am going to say red. Any minute now…

Whirlwind of Fire

The evening passed in the usual blur where time speeds up and excitement is at a high. We got closer and closer during the evening and exchanged flirty banter and those looks. You know the ones. Curious, daring, challenging, knowing. Time was escaping us, rushing past in an echo of Alice in Wonderland madness. Swept up in her crazy hotness and wild fire we rebelled and kissed - and our lips then tongues meeting was fire to fire. The taste of not girl, but woman. Full knowledge and comprehension of actions, not some naive innocent who will later regret.