Last Updated on 10 June, 2026 by Cara Sutra
It feels strange describing what I have with penny as a “relationship”, but I suppose that’s what it must be, at this point. The word “relationship” has romantic and sexual connotations, both of which certainly don’t apply here. “Dynamic” is the term used in BDSM for an ongoing connection and interaction between kinksters with compatible interests, but it feels too non-committal for what has been a Mistress/slave relationship for close to twelve years. Recently, penny has expressed a desire to write creatively, to have his kinky thoughts and fantasies published publicly, here on my blog. This post serves to introduce this new area of the blog, which blends the very real dynamic between slave penny and me, his Mistress, and his fantasy diary of a life in service to his cruel Owner, Conqueror, Goddess.
It’s important to understand that the diary entries published in this new FemDom Slave’s Fantasy Diary area of the blog are fictionalised accounts. Living situations, ages, dates etc have been changed within these fictionalised entries. They are written and should be enjoyed as erotica, extreme FemDom fantasy from a male slave’s long-term-chastity-enhanced imagination. These are his dreams which could not and should not ever become reality. They reflect his personal opinions on the FemDom aspect of BDSM. Despite the thread of eager consent throughout his writing, there are facets which are RACK rather than the SSC I insist upon in my actual, real-life BDSM interactions.
If you’re unsure of the difference, you may want to read my related guide, SSC vs RACK in BDSM.
So, a warning to all who venture beyond this point and who dare to look upon the extremely dark fantasies of a besotted, tormented, but ultimately kept safe and consensual slave. You’re about to read tales of grim slave ownership. A person hunted, conquered, dehumanised, stripped of everything he is or was, physically and psychologically, and broken then reshaped as property, chattel; a used and abused slave. These are the thoughts that tease his imagination and therefore his body, parts of his anatomy which will never be fully sated and are destined to circle in deliciously cruel, unending torment.
Do not attempt to live like this in real life. My slave certainly does not; I wouldn’t allow it or want it. And whatever rabbit holes his tortured imagination sends him down, he wouldn’t either. Not really. But it’s all fun to think about, isn’t it. A deviant little daydream, here and there.
Who is slave penny?
Slave penny is a male submissive who has been my consensual BDSM slave for close to 12 years at the time of writing. He is old, and although he is physically limited due to age and health issues, his desire to submit and serve me is stronger than ever. While his peers have lost their sex drive or desire, the addictive allure of chastity, self-pleasure denial, has filled his days – not to mention his body – with surging, throbbing energy. Although he lives a few hours from me, we have met for in-person D/s sessions as well as everyday pleasures such as a meal out, and shopping, on several occasions.
He has made mistakes. Allowed his patriarchal conditioning, the illusion of wisdom through age, and good old-fashioned stubbornness to delay his full submission to my will. On one memorable occasion he raised his voice to me in a moment I will never let him forget, because he doesn’t want me to, and he has pledged to never stop paying for that misdemeanour.
Everything about our Mistress/slave dynamic is mutually coordinated, and carefully tailored to his needs and desires, although I realise it may not seem like it from the outside. Such is the nature of FemDom, the way I do it at least. It’s roleplay, and although these roles are ones we both inhabit fully, neither of us are one-dimensional characters. In any case, the consent, safety, trust and mutual pleasure which forms the mandatory core of BDSM is of the highest importance to me. I could never do anything to jeopardise any one of those tenets.
My husband, who is also Dominant, is aware of slave penny, and approves, and is quietly amused by his Domme wife owning another man. I don’t hide anything from him, nor have I felt the need to.
Back to this fantastical slave diary. The voice in the diary is slave penny’s, despite the activities described therein being daydreams. Perhaps fascinatingly alluring nightmares is a more apt description. As you may or may not be aware, the lower case “i” as a submissive’s personal pronoun, the capitalised honorifics and other departures from usual writing styles are common and ritualistic in written communications between sub and Dominant in BDSM.
What’s real, and what isn’t?
My ownership of slave penny, and his gift of absolute submission to me, is real and actively consensual. I use my experience as a Domme and the knowledge I’ve developed of him in particular, over the years, to craft a kinky Dominance/submission dynamic between us that we’re both comfortable within, and fully enjoy. There are various safe out methods that I subtly, regularly reference, ways in which I gain his active consent to continue in whatever vein I’m enjoying. I respect his limits, both those within the world of kink and those imposed by his real-life responsibilities and obligations. We trust each other implicitly, and it’s a trust that has been earned and proven multiple times over.
The diary entries in this part of my blog are another thing entirely. Slave penny writes the fantasy of total control. Cameras in every room, every minute of his day dictated, a cage he never leaves, a home with nothing except service to me, who he has recast as the evilly calculating, ice-cold villainess of his most extreme edging-without-orgasm dreams.
These writings are the fantasies of a man who has spent a long lifetime desperate to be owned completely, finally given permission to communicate those desires in their most extreme forms, and the space to share those shocking thoughts, albeit anonymously, safely, with the world.
How this diary works
Slave penny requested permission to gather his daily fantasies into coherent daily diary entries for my pleasure and entertainment, and yours, via my blog publication. Instead of publishing them daily, I will collate them and publish in weekly batches. Partly for my own ease and to save your feeds, partly because you get a better sense of things when you can read a week’s worth of entries in one go.
You can read a little about his real-life submission from a chastity angle in his previous work here on the blog: Real-Life Experience of Chastity Lock-Up.
I don’t know how long this series will run, a great deal depends on his energy limits and continuing good health. I am certainly not insisting he writes any of this for me or my blog; these entries are borne from his fervent desire to share these thoughts and fantasies with me, and with all of you. He tells me there is a great deal still to come. Rituals described, service obligations hinted at, elements of extreme submission to be revealed in due course. I look forward to reading it all, and I hope you do, too.
Enjoy all his fantasy slave diaries here.
