Self Harm Awareness Day
There is a specific date which has been set as Self Harm Awareness Day. One day obviously isn’t enough, but it’s a start. What is it and more importantly, WHY does it exist?
As a past sufferer of self harming I can assure you that it is not an attention seeking or vanity act. There comes a time when you feel unable to process the sheer overwhelming amount of negative thoughts, memories, emotions and other feelings and the only outlet you feel you have is to somehow transpose them to physical pain.
A visual, such as the droplets of blood and the bleeding lines which form scars, can help to distract the tortured mind away from merely swirling in the same murky eddying waters and focus on the physical catharsis of pain. Physical, bodily pain that can be seen, felt, dealt with. Because mental anguish cannot be seen and is not so easily deciphered.
There are times in my life that I will admit, self harming rears its ugly head into my mind and I stuff it back down. I do suffer with depression and it comes and goes in phases. Part of the taboo of mental illness, particularly in our country, is that any outbursts of actions from the mental suffering you experience are not tolerated by those around you or by healthcare professionals, it is not understood and it is seen as purely attention seeking and selfish.
So the whole wonderful merry go round of negative self thoughts begin again.
If you struggle with thoughts of self harm, are going through this suffering or you have experienced it in the past, please feel free to comment or contact me. I would welcome the chance to find support together, either talking through shared thoughts and issues or simply finding new friends to move forwards with, towards a happier time.